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Today I have my third rebirthday.

on 21st Dec 3 years ago I had a brain stroke. That means that I’m at the same time 28-year-old, 63-year-old and 3 years old.

Each year I feel very weird on this day. I really feel that this date is important to me, even more than my birthday. celebrating the day you were born, its something natural, but I didn’t choose the way of my growth, right? My mom says that I didn’t say ‚no’ to food, but it’s not like I was choosing it. After my brain stroke, I conducted my life consciously to the point that I could. From the diaper to the place I’m in.

Last year was a bit peculiar to me. It cant be related in few words, so I’ll leave it until the new years eve;)

Today I’m gonna be traditional. I’m gonna tell you the ways my life changed in a good way. Areas that are better now.

As you know, the life of a strokie isn’t that great. Frequently it seems to be hopeless and horrible. But there can be found things that changed for better. I truly believe that each and every one of us can find at least one such thing, even if his or her life is miserable.

Well, I have to admit, that few things changed for worse last year. surprisingly I feel weaker than last before. Strange. This year I haven’t had a stroke, the year before I did. how to explain that?:o

so many things are going for worse, I’m not gonna focus on them because there are plenty which changed my life for better. Since last year I’ve noticed a big growth. I’m letting the list expand, even if it grows that big, that it’s too long to read.

so.

what has changed in my life for better after stroke?

1. 1. I take better care of myself,
   2. I’ve met few new, nice people,
   3. I’ve let go few people, who were bringing me pain. emotionally it’s a great thing for me,
   4. I’m less stressed with small things,
   5. I don’t have a stressful and horrible job anymore,
   6. I’ve learned knitting,
   7. I quit smoking,
   8. sometimes I’m rested,
   9. the card ‚you know, I’ve had a stroke’ still works for me,
   10. I know why I’m oversensitive to sun,
   11. I have a PFO fixed,
   12. I’ve I’ve found a new, great psychologist and i feel that she’s the one,
   13. i’m fixing, one by one, everything that’s broken in me,
   14. i have the first thing in my life that i’m proud of. I mean my blogs.
   15.  My blogs give me satisfaction. It’s a really nice, previously known feeling.
   16. I have the energy to learn new things,
   17. I’m overcoming my boundaries and things I’m scared of,
   18. I’m more peaceful than before. I feel less irritated,
   19. I’ve learned Spanish. I can communicate in this language. And I learned it by myself,
   20. I’ve lost 15 kilos,
   21. I don’t have to give my granny rides to shops. Not being able to drive sucks, but on the other hand, I love this excuse,
   22. I see that I’m helping people,
   23. My hair fall out less,
   24. i’m thinking about myself more,
   25. I started dating,
   26. I have a small collection of figures of goats,
   27. I understand people better,
   28. I’m not that worried about money. I know its very horrible, as my parents are providing for me, but on the other hand, before I was counting each zloty with a fear, and now I’m still counting, but without fear,
   29. I get long depressive states less frequently,
   30. I get rid of stuff rather than I collect them,
   31. I’m learning to have an order around myself,
   32. If its even possible, I’m closer to my brother than anytime before,
   33. again I appreciate being outside,
   34. I have the hammock!
   35. I can do things in WordPress better and better,
   36. I have ‚my own’ business. It goes badly, but it’ll be better. one day.
   37. I have a feeling that I’m more active.

Comparing to the Polish version this list is shorter for two points;)

But still it’s impressive, isn’t it?

I like the points about being proud of myself, as for the first time I really feel pride and satisfaction. It’s a new, great feeling to think about yourself well. For a change;)

Maybe you should try to think about such list yourself? Even in despair, we can find something. For me, the first thing was realising in a hospital that I have nicer skin.

It started with one. Now list is that long!:)