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I, Daniel Blake – human vs. bureaucracy

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When I saw first minutes of the movie I smiled saying ‚oh wow, film about ZUS*’, but I didn’t really believe that the ZUS part will be that big.

*ZUS – Zakład Ubezpieczeń Społecznych, eng. Social Insurance Institution

I, Daniel BlakeSoon I found out that I was right and wrong at the same time. This movie is something more than a story of a guy  who doesn’t want to be broken by institution. It’s also about the guy who is just good person with warm, honest heart. And about a woman, who has bad luck and many troubles and tries to handle the best way she can. And about the fact that good people are going to spread the good no matter what.

Of course it’s gonna sound like a biggest cliché but I have to say that, the film consists of many Kafkaesque elements. Institutions are often Kafkaesque. Think about that.

Daniel  ismore or less 5o year old guy after severe heart attack. His doctor strongly forbids him to work, but the fact that he can walk 50 meters and take something out from the pocket disqualify him in the eyes of insurance company. He lacks sufficient points from silly questions which disqualifies him in the eyes of The Institution. As there are strict procedures, he can’t appeal as long as he doesn’t receive a phone call confirming the letter he got. Going to The Institution himself  makes him even more frustrated.

Daniel tries to make his way in the reality of absurd in which he is forced to seek for a job he can’t really do, just to have any kind of allowance. He is forced to use computer which he can’t use, he is struggling with office workers who have to follow strict rules that don’t match reality. Our protagonist has to be fighter, but he doesn’t want to be one. He just wants to be treated fair and with respect as he is honest for others.

It’s just one of the aspects of the movie, I’m not even sure that it’s the most important, but in his story I see my story (these months without any income!)  and people I know from internet. It’s hard to express. The movie triggered the discussion in the UK, many people say that they know this theme from their experience, others can see the cruelty of bureaucracy for the first time. In my opinion the picture in the movie is milder than in reality. It doesn’t depicts well the constant fear which accompanies people who struggle for living while being sick.

Fear is our companion. Fear of second (third in my case) stroke, another heart attack, financial security, fear of evil commission… I couldn’t sleep at nights when I was waiting for my commission. I knew that I’m not able to work. What should say my friend with multiple sclerosis and after stroke which found out that commission thinks that she is able to work in an office? 😮 I believe her that she can’t. and i really think that her commission was heartless. She is like Daniel Blake (and me) – doesn’t want benefits for life. She wants to go back to job, but it’s impossible now. And there is a fear.

what should say my another friend who after another stroke is more and more disoriented and can do simply less things? She can’t sleep at nights either. Every commission in Institutions which should be here to help is so stressful for her, because she was mistreated, misdiagnosed many times, she was also badly treated by members of commissions. She can fight but I see her loosing faith. Sadly you can’t buy faith. In every second message from her I see these words. „I’m afraid”.

This reality is so difficult for most of people in need, but especially for these with cognitive problems. I guess I should feel lucky as I was in hospital after second stroke at a date of my complementary commission. First one couldn’t decide. Able to work or not able? Well, my second stroke helped them judge.

In theory we shouldn’t feel as suppliants in front of the offices. It’s our money which is given back to us. Still one of the phrases that i find on my polish blog, people can find me in Google by this sentence…

boję się lekarza ZUS = I’m afraid of the doctor from ZUS

how horrible is that?

Daniel Blake is true not only for Great Britain. Details may vary, but will be true for all countries in which a person is a number in the system.

It’s also s true emotionally.

It took away something like 3 liters of my tears.

I recommend it to all of people who

a) like good cinema

b) want to find out the ugly truth

c) want to understand less fortunate ones

‚d) don’t want to feel alone with their problems.

PS

there is also moving, not less important!, Katie’s story. It’s also important. the friendship is important, everything about this movie is important.

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I got an increase on my monthly income! Yay!

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Our caring government, or National Insurance Company took care of people like me and we got increase on our monthly payment.

Me myself i got

1,92 PLN

which gives me about

0,44 EUR, 0,59 USD, or 0,36 GBP

more of monthly income.

I can spend it in plenty of ways! For instance:

buy 6 bread rolls in a discount market,
buy 3-4 bread rolls in bakery
buy one cigarette (illegally, but still possible)
use 200 l more of tap water
Buy half price ticket for bus in my city for 15 min,
Buy half price ticket for Warsawian bus for 20 min,
buy one lemon in the beginning of the season
buy 3 pencils with a rubber
buy a donut
buy two zucchinis in the season for zucchinis
buy sesame cookies
change it to 192 coins and throw them to every fountain thinking wish of winning big money lottery
send few (even more) complaining texts to friends
Buy two cheap instant soups
Buy one normal instant soup
buy Ikea hot-dog
Buy the cheapest beer in Poland
Buy one kilo of potatoes
Buy one issue of famous Polish tabloid
buy a lighter
buy a roll of toilet paper
But if I’m patient enough I can save this money for a year and buy:

set 32: knucke with fries and pickled cucumber

or

set 34: Penne with salmon and creamy souce or penne Alfredo, with ripening ham , driend tomatos, rucola and creamy souce

or set 35: grilled chicken breast with blue cheese, with rice and veggies

(menu of this restaurant).

If I saved for 3 months more I could have bought more excellent food. And for the change I could but matches on art.

Possibilities are endless! With 192 coins I could coninue my physiothrapy like that:

fasolki

 

almost, because i would have to save for beans:P

I can’t see any reason to complain. In fact, I should be happy. We have deflation, so actually they should lower amount I get…

PS

My brother, the best guy I know, helped me a lot while writing. I asked for ideas my friends also, but their imagination doesnt get the importance of this topic, sorry.

PS2